Sunday, October 22, 2006

Haha.. for moments i cant seem to remember wad i wan to say.. though i've been thinking abt it for quite some time.. muz be the effect of the alcohol last nite.. yup, went MOS... kena saboh by my beloved pal.. haaa.. sick lor.. supposed to cant go one lehz.. but den huh.. no choice.. hahaaa.. Anyway was Andy's 'Birthday' celebration, but nt his birthday yet.. haaa.. buddy ma.. no choice.. gotta go in the end.. muz shang lian.. haaa!!! anyway, tot i wasnt going to drink, but when i reach there, sigh, i juz reach for the drinks and start drinking.. Sam asked why i drink so much.. dint really know also.. juz dat feeling very down.. and somehow alcohol juz makes me forget them temporarily.. so juz drink.. funnily, after so long of nt drinking, i tot i might get drunk/high after one or two glasses but no, nt even high after the fifth one.. maybe cos inside im so down i cant even get high anymore.. anyway, met one old fren who forgot abt me there.. haaa. she was there cos her fren was invited by andy to go and she somehow know andy too so go also lor.. really fate man.. initially i dint wanna go also lor, but kena saboh, and go.. so get to meet her and resume contact.. haaa.. nt bad la..

anyway, wanna write abt this thought i have in my mind.. thank you wonghui.. realised first time i wrote down ur name.. i really love u alot.. still.. forever.. and loving you makes me open my mind and heart to many things.. these period of time juz makes me feel more for you, no matter hw hard i try to move on, apparently the effect is the opposite.. losing you makes me learn to cherish the things which i have nw.. which i dint use to... one word for all who read this.. really cherish wad u have nw and appreciate them.. but dun juz stop there.. tell those things, or ppl how much they mean to you everyday every moment, and how much u appreciate their presence, cos u wont know when these precious things/people will be gone.. i've lost mine.. and now i grasp the meaning of the phrase 'people only learn to treasure when they lose it'... i treasure u so much that i wan to have another chance with you.. to work things out.. to love you once more.. and to tell u everyday u're the world to me.. i really do feel all these.. empty thoughts.. i can think.. but all these are thoughts.. they nvr materialised.. like my dreams.. i love you... love you... love you...

darkfossil high on VoDkA @ 11:10 AM

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