Saturday, October 07, 2006

Life's abt that isn't it? making mistakes and learning from them.. recently i made so many mistakes it's unbelievable.. distancing myself from practically everyone else, except the few gd frens who're always there, like junsong and vickie.. good pals will stay forever.. true love too.. guess btw us there really isnt any true love like we used to think there was.. it's amazing the spd u r at that i cant catch up with u anymore.. i will walk slowly behind, cos i've been hurt.. and seeing u run off in the distance, i wont stop you.. i've finally moved on.. i think.. the hurt is still there.. the love will always be there.. but the material items are no longer there.. i've removed them.. except the picture in my wallet, i cant take them off. it's stuck there.. oh well, let it be some memories to remember abt..

u really gimme alot of happy moments, that im thankful for.. and my frens once advise me, do u really love her, or do u juz love memories of her? that is a qn worth pondering abt.. which till nw i cant tell the difference.. cos i love both u and memories of you.. that's sth that shudnt be doubt.. but rite nw, the diff is that u dun love me anymore.. i did say, the day u dun love me is the day i'll stop loving you.. it's a simple equation i believe, cos ur love was the pillar i built my future on.. the strength that lift me up when i've fallen, and the glimmer of hope in times of failures.. rite nw, i juz gotta find other avenues for that, and my frens really do come in greatly here... Thank you for the past, the present, and maybe my future, where you'll always play a part... One day we might be frens, like u say, we've been thru so much its not fair if we cant even end up as frens to support each other in this journey we called life.. one day i promise you.. one day.. but nt rite nw.. lemme come to terms with certain issues of my life first, and the ending of our relationship.. when i truly moved on, u will know. cos the smile will once again return to my face.. and from that time on, i will be happy.. so u be happy too..

i truly understand the meaning of loving someone is nt to have, but to make sure shes happy.. but i dun practise wad i preach.. im still learning.. learning in life.. from my mistakes.. from my errors in life, i grow.. u outgrew me in that.. u mature and moved on faster than i tot u would.. sad to say, im quite glad for you.. but at the same time, im upset.. oh well..

thanks to ppl who've given me advice and has pulled me along and nt lemme juz fall and stay there to rot.. vickie thanks alot.. tho u urself are facing problems, u provided ur help to me in times when i really nd them.. sad to let u see this state of me.. ur sound advices and ur constant encouragement, tho unintentional as u say, really helps me alot.. and junsong, thks for being my buddy for these two yrs in army.. really hard to find true frens who stick by ur side forever.. i will be one to u too, and one for those who stick with me.. sam, tho u r my officer, u nvr always treat me like ur subordinate.. u r the reason why im still happily working in CAB sia.. if nt i'll be complaining everyday abt hw this shit sucks, that i cant chiong sua and hafta do this work... and for the wise words u always gimme, altho always in broken english.. ahha.. but i can see u really care for me and is a great pal of mine.. kenneth, for always sharing stuff with me.. u r the one who truly makes me see a difference, in loving someone and loving memories of someone.. its gd to be able to share ur deeper self with someone whom u know can guide u along in ur life.. and these are the ppl who'll stay forever.. and be with u forever.. even when the sky is gonna fall on me like it has, i know i will find these ppl by my side holding up the sky with me.. u were the one then.. but rite nw, i know i'll have my frens with me.. Thank you, to u, my love, and to all those who are with me.. Thank you..

darkfossil high on VoDkA @ 11:37 AM

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