Tuesday, October 17, 2006

dat's it.. as the title says.. i shud be moving on.. to love or to be loved? which will u choose? i dun have anyone loving me.. and to me, loving someone is juz so hard.. lost my faith.. lost my belief.. it was put with you under unconditional terms and unlimited period the day i first said i love you.. and now u're gone, i've lost it with you.. dun give it back.. cos i still wan to love you.. but its getting tiring.. its draining me of my energy everyday.. i cant look back.. the past hurts and pleases at the same time.. i cant look forward.. cos i see u loving someone else.. i prefer to stay in the present.. cos the present is like a sanctuary to my heart.. it doesn't hurt.. and i hope time stays this way.. lemme live in the pleasures of my present and ignore the prospects of the future..

graveyard of my heart.. lost my inspiration to write that.. ur love is in it.. my heart is like a jigsaw puzzle, and u have the last missing piece.. guess the puzzle will nvr be completed... who knows wad the wind of time will blow along? but rite nw i'm shielding myself from this hurricane that's assaulting both my mental and emotional state.. i stare in the mirror and sometimes i wonder why i make myself so pathetic.. is it me i'm seeing? i chose this path so i shudnt be regretting it.. takes two hands to clap.. sorry if i ever sounded like im putting the blame on u for the failure of our love to develop further.. both of us were at fault for nt being able to bring our love to a greater, stronger ground where we juz nd to look at each other for the next inspiration, for the next smile, for the next beacon of hope, and for the strength to pull thru every obstacles life has in store for us..

Loving someone means giving unconditional time, dat i didnt give, unconditional commitment, dat i didnt give as well, and unconditional space, which i didnt give as well... but i love you.. and dats all dat used to matter.. Girlfriend? u were more than that.. u were my buddy, my laopo, my bubu, my everything! calling u my girlfriend doesnt even signify hw impt u meant to me.. but nw i cant even bring myself to call u a fren.. wad a joke these few mths of life has played on me.. i feel like a clown.. i am a clown.. i nvr take things seriously, and i admit, i do take u for granted at times.. but nvr for long.. i cherish u and always will.. i love you and always i will.. i pray for you and always i will.. i care for you and always i will.. i'll be there for you, and this u know, i always will..

So if ever u find that things are going wrong, and nth is going ur way, take a break, take two steps back, and u will find me standing side by side with you, and i will hold ur hands, and pull you along, and pull you back on the track with me.. den i will let go, and let u carry on, and i will fall two steps behind again, and watch ur back as u moved on...

darkfossil high on VoDkA @ 8:24 AM

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