Sunday, October 01, 2006
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself, when nobody else can help
Because you live girl, my world has twice as many stars in the sky.
Because you live, i live.
it was sometimes not too long ago,
when i was sitting in front of this comp,
nothing in my mind, nothing on the screen.
my fingers were cold, yet they aren't moving.
You were my inspiration in life,
and on that day i found no inspiration.
my mind was a blank, telling myself i cant do anything.
and then i heard this song, and ur picture surface in my head.
i start to type, and on this day i did.
i type wad my mind thought first,
cos they say whatever the mind thinks first,
is always the most true to its words.
There wont be any editting,
there wont be any cancellation.
there wont be any backspace,
there wont be any delete.
juz a plain old prose, reflecting hw i truly feel,
and i wont edit a single word i put in.
life is nt a vcd player.
we cant put our life on fast forward,
to see if this love will last till the end.
and we cant put it on reverse,
to try to change things that had happened.
I wished i had a magic wand,
to bring things back to four mths ago.
when we were sitting at the table,
and a tear flows from your eyes.
i shud have catch that tear,
i shud have said im sorry then.
i shud have said i love you,
i shud have said lets give it one more try.
but i do nt have a magic wand.
i wasnt sure abt my love at that time.
i tot i dint love you as much.
i tot it'll be fair for both of us to find ourselves.
only until now did i know i was wrong.
i've nvr loved someone so deep.
and i'll nvr love another one as much.
for in my heart there'll always be you.
you'll occupy the whole of it,
and im suffocating in ur love.
i let you go.
it was my choice.
im regretting it.
and im hating myself.
you gave me a chance.
i dint take it.
you waited for me.
i let you wait.
now that you're gone.
and im all alone.
im missing the days.
im hating the nights.
i cant hear a word at night,
for my mind is drowning out every of my senses.
if there's really fate in this world.
i hope our fate dint end here.
i do nt wan u to come back.
i juz wan a chance to show you,
hw much u truly mean to me.
i will give all my life to have one minute alone with you.
and in this last minute of my life i wont do anything else.
i will juz hold u in my arms, and kiss u on ur lips.
for one minute.
and i will gladly die in ur arms.
knowing that i've experienced true love.
and that love is you.
you've found someone there to be with you.
he might be the one we do not know.
shower him with as much love and concern as u once showered me with.
and i pray he will do likewise.
cos if u dun deserve it, no one else does.
i will give u my blessing..
i will congratulate him.
on finding the perfect someone,
in you.
great love comes with great risk i once read,
do nt be afraid to love again.
i love you.
and i always will.
you will one day walk down the aisle with The One,
and i will be there to cry tears of happiness for you.
love is nt able having,
its abt knowing the other one is happy.
my love couldnt make u happy,
and i hope someone else's will..
remember to smile.
it brightens my day.
and lit up my nights.
when i see ur mouth twitch upwards,
that will be priceless.
it will be the best gift u've ever given me,
that smile of yours,
and you truly being happy.
Bubu, i will love you forever.
i know i've done wrong.
nth can change the past.
and nth can change this love of mine.
until the day the coast lost itself to the sea,
and im lying in deep slp,
i will nvr love another as much,
as i love you.
and i'm glad that in this lifetime,
i finally know wad true love is.
though its no longer with me.
but knowing u're happy,
is akin to experiencing this true love.
Aku cinta Padamu.
hope u still remember this.
darkfossil
high on
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