Friday, October 06, 2006

You once told me, dat wad is mine is urs, and wads urs will still be urs.. and i dun mind.. my home was ur home.. and i wan u to come back home.. dats wad i've been feelin these days.. i wonder where u been.. i cant put ur picture away.. everywhere i go i see you.. i wan to move on.. but i cant.. my heart is pulling me back, telling me i cant let go.. i wan to wait, but isnt it stupid to be waiting for someone who so doesnt love you anymore? are we supposed to be able to give everything for the someone we really love? cos rite nw im feeling helpless.. ppl r telling me to let go, i told them im nt.. they're disappointed in me.. dat i'm no longer the person they used to know, the cheerful lionel who's always smiling and laffing away, able to share a joke with and can crack a joke practically from anything.. but they dint know that last time i had you, dats why i was happy.. rite nw i've lost the reason to be happy.. and there goes my smile and my humour.. cos i see nth to laugh abt anymore in my pathetic life here..

im sorrie i cant give u two my blessings.. who seriously can tell a person he loves straight in the eyes that he will be happy to see her make it happen with another guy? lets be frank here.. im nt happy and i cant be happy.. can we seriously brush our feelings aside, feelings we had for two yrs and more, all brushed to one side for someone we barely knew for two mths? maybe u'll use our past as an example.. but rite nw, i dun understand.. cos i cant.. i've apologised to yy.. i told her im sorrie dat i even told her i liked her.. cos at that time u were in my heart, yet i wan to move on, and i tot i could, that i did.. hw wrong i was.. do i really wan an answer from you? do i really wan to hear u say that, yes, u've stopped loving me for long? dat all ur feelings were gone? did u move on earlier than u said u did? that the 3 mths u waited were actually shorter than that? these 2 mths i've been blaming myself.. i let u wait for 3 mths.. but were u really there waiting sometime i asked? when someone waits, she dun develop feelings for others.. but yet u said u were interested in someone during that period of waiting.. so was that still waiting for you? i am waiting.. and i will be no matter wad i say, no matter wad u say, and no matter wad other ppl says.. i will be waiting.. and this time, i will show u wad is waiting.. cos no other person can replace the place u occupy in my heart.. and u'll nvr understand this..

know the song u wanted to send me? by rascal flatts? try listening to it thinkin u were me rite nw.. it fits exactly..

darkfossil high on VoDkA @ 8:13 AM

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